Sunday, March 2, 2008

Youth is to the Young as are Trust Funds to the Rich

I can't help but notice how people of independent means are lacking ambition and motivation. Not compelled to work for a living, they wander aimlessly, drifting from thing to thing. 

Let me explain:

In Christopher Isherwood's diaries, he tells how he lived on an "allowance" from his uncle, traipsing around Europe; when they arrive in Portugal they have a cook and maid. Right away I am extremely jealous. I have been an Isherwood fan for years, nevertheless this does not seem fair. He gets to complain in his journals how he's depressed because he's not writing... and there he is WRITING! ok, it's in his diary, not on his novel, but still, he's writing, and later will use this very diary as material for other works to come. If only I could somehow complain in paint that I am not painting. 

Not that I'm comparing Isherwood to ambitionless trustafarians. Clearly he had sufficient ambition to get out his typewriter to churn out papers enough and get published at last. I oughtn't hold his allowance and maids against him; it was a different time. Not that I'm bitter about it. 

I think it's time to sell something from the back of my closet. The leather jacket I used to wear on the back of a motorcycle, many moons ago. I had some nice trips in that coat. That was back in the day when I used the ostrich method on my debts, passionately believing  they would mysteriously go away as long as I ignored them.  

So, IF somehow I suddenly HAD a trust fund, would I suddenly also lose motivation to do my own work? Motivation to have a day-job, yes, without a doubt. I'd leave that in the blink of an eye. In fact, I'm just waiting for just such an eye to blink. BLINK ALREADY! I'd like to be tested on this. Very much. If anyone's listening.